Ok folks. This is not a happy Jenni post. Seriously. I am feeling a little caged in today. My creative bones are aching to work and yet I feel like I am in slow motion. The house feels upside down and the kids are acting like caged monkeys. How do I balance it all? I know one missing link, my exercise routine is zero, which is a big part of who I am now. Taking that away, or rather not finding the time to, is not in my best interest. And then this morning William said something so hurtful to me......that I am having a hard time wrapping my heart around it. sigh....perhaps that's when the whole word felt like a giant cage. He was in selfish mode....wanting to "do something today"and I asked him for 5 uninterrupted minutes to work. And he said, "you don't work Mom." Yep. Biggest dagger you can fly at an artsy Mom.
So for now I am in a major cleaning mode. You see that's what I do when feeling stressed like this. BTW, since saying
those words, he's also pouted about no food in the house, being bored, and other little 10 year old boy issues. In other words, he's tired. And we've got a long day to go. 8PM baseball tournament game tonight. I'm going to keep listening to what my heart tells me though and mush on (and bite my tongue). Maybe, just maybe, there will be a silver lining to this day.
Maybe.
6 comments:
i feel your pain. ugh! so sorry, hope your day is getting better
ahh the perils of motherhood!
you are not alone!
today I woke up with a sigh of relief knowing that I had one last solid week before my two kids are done school for the summer..and before my hubby is also off...
you see..i enjoy my days in the studio with no one around..where I can create, paint, sew..whatever!
without interruption or playing mommy!
i love my family, that goes without saying...
so here i am soaking the day in...happily creating....ready to go gunn ho this entire week....
and don't i get a phone call from the school saying that my son just threw up!
so he's home...and here i am.....
such is life...
artsy mom's.....i totally get you!
ciao bella
creative carmelina
That was an awful thing to say to you. Of course you work. You create beautiful art, you run a home, and you raise your children. If that isn't work--EXTREMELY HARD work, I don't know what is.
hopefully your day will get better ... but even if it doesn't just keep remembering that your son will most likely be a parent some day too:)
I feel the same way about exercise too! I try to go 4 times a week during the day ... it clears my head, I have more energy and it makes me feel good about myself.
Jenni,
I can't remember where I read it, but one mom's answer to "I'm bored" is to hand her kids a rag and to tell them to clean the baseboards. LOL--I know you keep yours pretty, so you'd have to come up with some other chore. Mine are filthy, so I no longer hear, "I'm bored."
Big hug and wishes for some creative time.
-Heidi
Hang in there! Sending you positive thoughts.
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